I got up early and went to church today. It was our preacher's last sermon and she talked about loss and saying goodbye she also mentioned that she did 32 funerals one of which being my own daughters. It was a good service and I really enjoyed going to church today. I had to tell my daughter half a million times to sit down but it was worth it because she is finally starting to catch on. She asked me if God was dead and I explained to her to God id a spirit and he has never lived as a human so he wouldn't be able to have died. My son wasn't feelingwell so I let him skip church today.It made me feel better to go to church this morning like something was alitlle more complete. I did get a rejection on my book today but I will keep trying and I am trying to ot let it get me depressed..